Sigh… so recently I applied and got accepted to a position connected to interact and rotary, called district council. District Council (DC) in my opinion is a Grand Council that puts on events for our district (5160) and helps promote unity and leadership skills among teens. My job specifically is more weighted to coming up with unique ideas and help put them on as events. Of course my feelings for DC are divided in to three main categories at the moment: Expectations, Excitement, and Fear.
EXPECTATIONS:
Everybody has them, and mine are usually low. I never really expect a lot from my peers because I know that a lot of them are holding back their own potential for whatever reason and as such, are lazy. But with DC I think my expectations are quite the opposite. I assume everyone will be very smart and have a 4.0 GPA and just make me look bad. At the same time however, I feel like I should not expect anything from DC, not because the members will be slackers or anything, but simply because I am in for an experience so unlike anything I have ever really done that my expectations will not mean anything. At the same time I wonder what will be expected of me… I have never been in a position where a lot is required of me and I am sure that this will be the perfect start. It will be a good feeling to be in an environment where people expect the best of me and encourage me to do better. So I guess I expect that DC will be a big surprise to me, not something I originally expected XD.
EXCITEMENT:
I can honestly say that I am excited to meet everyone in DC. I know a lot of them from CAMP ROY-AL but there are members that I have not met and I really want too. We do not get a lot of opportunities as teens to really get out and be part of something much bigger than ourselves, something that is for the benefit of others instead of ourselves. So I really want to see how DC does its thing and put my heart into the making of events that will help bring people together. I wish more people knew about things such as interact and rotary, I mean really knew, knew that it could help them develop communication, discipline, teamwork, etc. I want a chance to really do something in DC that is major and will get to people. I don’t know what that something will be, but as long as I remain me and have the support of the friends I meet in DC, I am sure the right idea will come to me.
FEAR:
Hmm… my fears, I guess the two things I fear most about DC are rejection and failure. I fear that when I go into a meeting that the other members will not accept me, like I will be some sort of outcast whose ideas are not wanted or need. This is just something I have always gone through and I am hoping that this is just a silly phobia and DC is not really like that. I also fear that my past experiences and abilities are not enough to handle the job I have been given and I will fail. I fear that faith will be put into me only to fuel my ultimate crash and burn. As I stated earlier I have never been ins such a position where so much pressure was put on me…and for that very reason I fear I will fail and I will let down other DC members who were good enough to accomplish their jobs and goals.
This is an interesting albeit scary task I have ahead of me, but I will go into the void willingly, because deep down I feel that if I really were not qualified to do this job, then I would not have been given it. DC here I come >=D.
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